Happy birthday Mum

Feeling a little more human tonight, was able to focus more and even felt up to eating a little which helped stop the nausea I have been struggling with recently.

Right leg is still very painful but luckily this time round no redness, so think this will be over by Sunday woohoo which means I hopefully will be up for going out for dinner as long as I agree to the kids terms of staying in bed before and afterwards to fully recover.

All in all this was by no means a "bad" attack of cellulitis as in length or severity but having said that, every attack is doing more damage to my lymphatic system and we're not sure how much more my body can take before shutting down, so not a good future but that's enough of that.

Sigh and I was all ready for going back to gym today too before this all happened, but fingers crossed, maybe Tuesday next week?

Oh mustn't forget, got a guy coming tomorrow to check out my front big tree that lookalike it's either dying or already dead :(. I planted these 4 trees 28 yrs ago and have already lost one, don't want to lose this one too but if its dead will have to get it chopped down as it is very tall and I'm scared of it falling onto the road or back towards the house.

Then I'll have to plan what to replace it with I guess, I love the privacy that the trees give us at the front hmm.

Ok head woozy now, yep just taken endone and it's kicked in now

Weight results plus cellulitis again - 28th Aug

Start weight: 213.5 kg / 469.7 lb

Week 1 lost -2.9 kg

Week 2 lost -3.8 kg

Week 3 lost -3.4 kg

Week 4 gained +1.8 kg

Week 5 lost -0.4 kg

Week 6 gained +1.0 kg (cellulitis attack 2-3:00 pm straight after weighing in)

Total in 6 weeks: -7.7 kg / 16.94 lb

Felt absolutely horrible last few days and sure enough, weighed in today (time of month finishing yesterday) then back to bed with cold, fevers, chills, shakes, yep, full blown cellulitis attack, legs are extremely painful esp to touch and feel like they're burning up from the inside out!

So confined to bed again, and concentrating on taking all my tabs on time yeah we upped the keflex from 2 tabs twice a day to 4 tabs every six hours plus two panadol and endone and OxyContin as needed throughout the day / night.  Trying to hit this hard to allow me to a) stay at home and b) get well quicker so I can go out for my mum's birthday lunch which we're having everyone come down here for on Sunday, going up to our local Carousel Inn for dinner.

Damn asthma is also playing up, sitting here wheezing away

Ok resting now  

Weight results

Start weight: 213.5 kg / 469.7 lb

Week 1 lost -2.9 kg

Week 2 lost -3.8 kg

Week 3 lost -3.4 kg

Week 4 gained +1.8 kg

Week 5 lost -0.4 kg

Total in 5 weeks: -8.7 kg / 19.14 lb

Not a big loss by any means, but it's a loss :). So even with the legs slowly filling up again with excess lymphatic fluid, I am trying really hard to keep on track, eating well, drinking plenty of water, rest a lot, take all my medications and stay positive.

Just keep doing what I know are the right things to do and hopefully will even out in the end.

Mum had her first eye surgery on Tues and she is doing really well, Michael stayed a couple nights with her just to be sure but came home lunch time today.  He had to laugh when she kept missing picking things up etc cause she wasnt used to having one eye covered lol, she says she now knows how I feel when my eye plays up with the cold sore virus I've had, my eye goes completely white and the pressure is sky high and extremely painful for days but does disappear in bout 10 days with eye drops and ointment - usually only reoccurs when my immune system is really low like after a cellulitis attack.

Anyway same time next month she's going to have the other eye done too, so Michael will go up there again.

Toni and I had a ball here on our own :) watched girly flicks like True Blood hehehe and generally enjoyed the peace and quiet away from his constant noise lol.  We also made bread and brownies.  Yum!

Ok getting really tired here, just spent a long time talking to my guy in Melb who I miss heaps and feeling bit sensitive right now, so might go read a good book and hopefully fall asleep for please let it be at least 3 hrs straight tonight?

Weight results - 14th Aug 2013

Start weight: 213.5 kg / 469.7 lb

Week 1 lost -2.9 kg

Week 2 lost -3.8 kg

Week 3 lost -3.4 kg
Week 4 gained +1.8 kg

Total in 4 weeks: -8.3 kg / 18.26 lb

Been a really weird week this past one, recovering has taken longer than I usually do and that is SO frustrating, being stuck in bed really makes me feel so miserable and useless, hate those feelings.

Also, hunger has been a real issue too this week, I can't eat a lot at one time so have been having lots of little snacks instead, all healthy and tracked, but my stomach has been doing lots of "tummy farts" as the kids call it, sounds hilarious but I just feel like, I could eat a horse but if you gave it to me, one bite and I'm full, sigh.

And of course, I still can't move around a lot, a bit of bed dancing but nothing major, hopefully this coming week I can do a lot more

Went to my local dr and she's delighted with the "floppy" look of my right leg, definitely can see where the fluid had come from, but looks like I'm already starting to fill up again which is disappointing.

Blood pressure is great, lungs clear, she's very happy with how I handled this last cellulitis episode and to continue now with the preventative antibiotics.  She also warned me she's going away in couple weeks, so I'm popping back into see her before she leaves so we can make sure I've gotten all my scripts for antibiotics, seretide and OxyContin so I don't run out while she's away and have to try and get some other doctor to give me the scripts.  I think she's gone for bout 3-4 weeks.

Well, that's about me done, will try and update more regularly lol oh got my mum's birthday at end of Aug and I've arranged for my brother in law to bring her down and we will all hopefully go out for dinner on that Sunday night cross fingers I'm well enough.

Oh another thing, Michael will be going up to Mum's next Tues to take her to the hospital, she's having surgery on her eyes, one next Tue, then the other next month, anyway, Michael will take her there and back home again, staying the night so he can then driven her to the specialist the next day for checkup.

So Toni & I will be home alone Tue, Wed :) woohoo party time lol.

Catch up plus Weight Results

Start weight: 213.5 kg / 469.7 lb

Week 1 lost -2.9 kg

Week 2 lost -3.8 kg

Week 3 lost -3.4 kg

Total in 3 weeks: -10.1 kg / 22.2 lb

Started 17th July 2013 counting calories

Suffered cellulitis attack on Fri 26th Jul and upped my Keflex tabs to 4 tabs twice daily for next ten days, going back to 2 tabs twice daily on morning Tue 6th Aug

I continued counting and recording foods during the last couple weeks even though I was sick and I barely ate much at all the first week but am slowly eating more now and have to keep an eye on making sure I eat regularly plus drink a lot more than I currently am, that's a big problem for me to work on.

Exercise has been a complete no no for me, in fact it's been 24/7 bed rest, only getting up to go to the bathroom and back to bed, so that's helped a lot in regards to fluid in my legs especially the right one which had a major flare up with size, pain, redness and heat the first week or so after I got sick, but that too is coming down nicely.

I have slowly started moving my legs around more while in bed prob yesterday and today? Just have to know my limits and not push, well, not much anyway lol.

Just a quick update to let you all know that I am being strong as I can, staying on track, recording and being accountable and feeling a little better each day.

Home

It's been quite a while old faithful friend since I've last been here and updated, but here I am

I've missed updating actually and I keep meaning to pop back but ended up gasp posting mostly on the dreaded Facebook, I know I know and to be truthful, I do miss just putting it on here all my thoughts, feelings etc but I guess I let myself get all worried about how people perceived me, how I saw myself and my failures in weight loss, exercise etc and I "thought" that everyone saw through me and saw all my weaknesses and gave up on me as I now realised I had given up on me.

So I had to really think about what I wanted from my blog, what I needed to do to get what I needed and to be honest, truthful committed and open in what I write and most of all, do this for me and only then will blogging be once again a place of comfort, serenity and safety.

There you go :)  

I'm home.