I just want to curl up in bed and stay asleep, it's been a very long few days and the kids and I came home late Saturday afternoon just to have a few days to spend together alone before heading back up the Central Coast on Thu for another few days.
The tribute race night at my sister's and brother in law's Slot Car shop was overwhelming with love, support and grief, but was very special to us all.
I'm struggling a bit with words so I won't ramble on here, but my sister's funeral is next Fri 16th March at 10.30 am with a get together at the RSL afterwards (we hired a room there) so I know that is going to be a very long day.
Mum is coping, just, and it's strange, my role as the youngest daughter, suddenly has shifted and I"m just not sure where I fit in now? Does that make sense? I'm just really confused and I don't think it's hit me yet that I have lost my big sister and life really has become a lot harder without my best friend.
My niece and nephew have been wonderful, I'm constantly in contact with them both by txt, phone and facebook while I'm back here at home and that's helping them but definitely helping me too.
John my brother in law is gorgeous, he's such a softie and he adored his Lynne as I know she did him too.
Lynne wrote on her status on FB soon after we found out the cancer had spread and that the chemo wasn't working - "Life sucks" and you know what, it does!
I know it seems an odd thing to say but these days are precious.
ReplyDeleteIt's also a very stressful time so take good care of yourself.
There's nothing wrong with cuddling up in your bed for a day or so. I'm sure you need the rest and it will give your body some physical relief as well as some comfort.
Talk as much as you can about your sister and family things. It helps. Don't be afraid to cry or even wail if that happens.
I understand the confusion ..... it's an odd experience but part of the process.
Love and Blessings,
MargieAnne
I just caught up with the news, and am very sorry for you and your family. Losing an immediate family member is a big change. My partner lost his older sister in 2006 (to cancer) and it felt like the world as I knew it was thrown upside down, where I had adjusted to the fact that people passed away but Mum, Dad and siblings were sacred.
ReplyDeleteReality sinks in slowly, sometimes I'm still not sure we have gotten used to the idea.
Yes, life can suck big time.
Thinking of you and the family, Penny xoxo
Anne, my love and thoughts are being sent throu cyber space.
ReplyDeleteHaving lost family members I can agree...life can be sucks!!
Hang in there Anne, memories live in our hearts forever, keep them alive.